ENOUGH. Again.

First off, I have to tell you something.

It makes me a happy person to have not set resolutions this year.

I say that, but of course I still plan to lose weight. Duh. And I'll do it this year. Just you wait and see. And I think my word of the year is going to help me.

Before I get to the word though, I'll admit that this isn't the first word I decided on.

I had been planning on the word 'commitment'. Why commitment? Because basically I suck at follow-thru. Not all the time, but when it comes to things like eating right, losing weight, dental hygiene, etc...I find myself staying on track for a few weeks (or even months) and then seriously 'falling of the wagon'.

And as I thought about it some more...the reason I think that I falter with those things is because I generally beat myself up WAY TOO MUCH. I am 100% too hard on myself. How can I stick with things if the second I do the wrong thing I am down on myself.

Negative thoughts + negative feelings = negative results. 

I've had self esteem issues since, hmm...probably 1st grade? I had a classmate ask me if I dyed my eyebrows (imagine a girl with VERY blond hair and VERY dark eyebrows). Since then, I've worried what people are thinking. And I usually don't imagine that they are thinking good things.

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Not sure what it is, but something has just clicked for me in the last few days, and I'm feeling even more strongly about the post I wrote on Wednesday that we all need to take it easy on ourselves.

So. 

My word of the year for 2013 will be:

ENOUGH 

I am enough.
Enough of thinking too much.
I have spent enough time being hard on myself.
Enough wasting time. Enough excuses. Get IT {no matter what it is...including losing weight} done already.

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I've got a bunch of changes that I'm making, but I am introducing them slowly.  Instead of attacking the year with gusto, I'm making one or two small changes each week so that by mid-February I'm doing all of the things I want to accomplish and have set a goal of committing to, behaviors that will have me acting like the Jenny that's in my head and that I aspire too.

But until then, and even if I don't accomplish all of that, I know that I'm enough.

Anything new just makes for a 'new & improved' Jenny.

There isn't anything wrong with the current model, but everyone needs a change once in a while.