I wonder what my life would have been like if I HAD been held back?
Would I have still ended up in this same place?
I don't talk about my relationship with God much here. But that doesn't mean that I don't have one. And I have a firm and strong belief that He has a plan for every single one of us. And that everything happens for a reason.
Every last thing.
So would I have ended up with J#1 if I had been held back in kindergarten? We first met in high school, in a journalism class that I really shouldn't have been in.
My guess is that yes, we would have ended up together. Especially with the fact that we have faced a few challenges {like his 25 year old wife having open heart surgery and too many moves to count, among other things} and are still together, looking towards the future.
So why does it feel like right now I am "being held back" again? I have so many ideas in my brain. Things I know I should be doing. But I just sit, thinking about them. Watching life pass me by.
Kicking myself for not doing this or that. Or the other thing.
I feel like this must be part of "The Plan". I just sort of wish it was laid out, neat and tidy.
But then I guess life would be pretty boring, wouldn't it? That is why it is so important {broken record starting here} to live life in the moment. The reason for the broken record? Likely because I need to keep reminding myself of that.
Every day.
And being held back? I need to figure out why, and there is only One Being that can likely help me with that one.
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